I feel myself wanting to stomp my feet! I want my T to come back! NOW!
She emailed me back today, but I think I might be missing her.

Then I saw my ex T today and I couldn't help but to smile back at him. Damn him! I wish he didn't have that effect on me. I just don't know if I can turn him in for his actions. I hate having mixed feelings about this. I know he deserves to be turned in, but I just don't know if it is in me to intentionally hurt him in this way. With the racquetball instructor, there was no emotional bond to him, so it was easier.

I do wish he would get help for himself. I am not sure if the anger he will feel if he gets turned in will actually help him see what he did was wrong and that he needs help. It is just hard because I keep running into him, maybe I need to stop going to the gym ? It seems like it might be easier to turn him in if I didn't see him all the time. I know there are no really clear answers here on what I should do. I know it is normal to have conflicting emotions on what to do about this. Today I am just feeling rather weak.

Then off topic, I found out yesterday that my daughter's guinea pig has a kidney stone and will probably die soon from it. I can't afford the $500 surgery and the vet I have said that all of the cases she has worked with, the pig usually gets another one anyway. So we are giving it pain meds, but it is so sad! It is the first pet death for my kids, and as a mom it totally breaks my heart to see her in pain. Plus I am attached to "cookie" too.