Hi Alana82,

Welcome to PC, I'm new here myself but I can relate to a some of what you've posted.

It's a big (scary) step admitting you need help but it's good that you've taken a step forward & reached out here. I know you're reluctant to go back on meds or go to therapy but is your GP or health visitor an option? Talking to them doesn't necessarily mean therapy or meds, sometimes they're just an extra bit of support for you.

Take care, Cyrus xx