Well, I have this friend, lets call her S for now. And like the title says, S has been copying me... A LOT! I learn Japanese, she is suddenly interested too. I always do a head bang with listening to music, she copies that. I saw "HA!" randomly, she does too. And I am trying to be unique, but with her copying me -- it doesn't really help. I want to learn Japanese so I can bee unique but now she is completely ruining it. She copies so many things that I do! But some of you may know that I am very depressed and suicidal, and S is pretty much my only real friend. I don't know how to tell her without her leaving me and me being a loner again. Please help? And I have another problem too:

I have been dying to see a counselor, but I can't seem to get myself to do it... I keep on promising myself that I will go there to get the help I need. But I can't seem to do it. Also, my friend waits for me outside of my math class everyday so that we can hang out, but right after math class is the only time I can go off and see the counselor... So what do I do without telling her that I have to see the counselor?