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Ok. So I just found out that I am going to be going to my old T on Saturday. I never told her anything about cutting/anything, or suicidal wants. This could be the only time I get to see her for a long time if she doesn't tell my parents I need to see her. I guess I do need help and I guess I should tell her but I don't know how. And I'm scared she'll tell my parents. Or she'll just walk away and not help. Or she'll judge me. Or if I tell her about everything, all the different SI, the eating, the suicide, the self-hating, and the other stuff, then she'll just say you don't deserve help, or something like that.
Sorry.
I guess my thing is, Is it worth it, should I tell her any of it, and how am I supposed to do that? And will she tell my parents?
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