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loveregardless · Feb 23, 2010, 10:59 PM

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Originally Posted by krazy_phoenix

Hi loveregardless,

You have been in my thoughts, and I was wondering how you went with your T on Friday? Please do not feel pressure to divulge anything, just hoping that it was a positive experience for you...

Hope that life has calmed a little or is at least giving you a little hiatus from the intensity you were experiencing a little while ago.

kp

It was very positive krazy, thank you for asking. I really like my T and she said she likes me, which made me feel much better to hear. She didn't get too many words in, because I didn't want to leave anything out, and I just sort of go on rolls like that. But she said that right now she just wants to respect my defenses and not focus on a dx because a dx changes over time and the patient changes/heals. I was a bit put off by that at first because all the psychs I've ever been to handed out dx sight on scene, but now I am really comforted by that.

I do not yet know how to balance being open and keeping this manageably slow. I am told by my T that we are going to work on learning containment and taking things slow, which I can't even fathom, because I never do anything slow. But I hope it works.

Right now I am still trying to nurture every part of myself, DID or otherwise, and allow them the patience, trust, love and acceptance that they need to feel safe and either choose to present themselves or not. I'm just trying to be here and keep it all as linear as possible. I'm starting to feel a bit shattered, but holding on as best I can.

Thank you so much for your continued kindness and acceptance. It means so much.

Love to all.