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I think feeling dependent on T is part of the process. Can you really trust someone with the things you have without depending on them? He literally has your life in his hands. He is good and you have shared your very soul with him. And I think it has to be a mutual kind of relationship to work the way it has for you. But I know it is hard and makes you sad, I so understand that, too

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