the three of 'em
little girl, young nurse, feel-old lady
putting 'em in their own compartments
segregation of sorts...
integration, later perhaps
i know the three be me
can't soothe but one at a time
used to be good at multi-tasking...

sat outside, back to the freezer
butt got cold, wouldn't come in
daughter brought hot chocolate...tears in her eyes
it's ok baby, it really is
leave me alone
and I'll come home dragging my cold butt behind me
hush little baby and don't you cry
no...cry and do not hold it in
you didn't cause it, you can cope with it, you can't cure it
cry over it...it's good to get it out
it's good to get it out

a&a night
acetaminophen and antihistamine
topped off with a pain med
safe, no intent
need the rest, dreamless sleep
i don't give a ff if it is two or three hours
long as they are back to back
a string of sleeping hours, badly needed
hard part is waiting for the here-it-comes
put the guard down
lay me down
sleep
no dreams please, please

huge forum, huge support
taking more than i can give
not wrong, just where i am right now
i think i am in the company of many silent ones
walk with me, it will get better, it always does
it's the getting from here to there that is a *****

letting the three be, can't handle them right now
float and give hugs
best i can do
tired, so tired...body that is
mind waiting for the boots and bombs to fall

here-it-comes
hope it comes soon
please