I had several run-ins with CPS while living with my mom. At the prompting of my school counselor, some social workers talked to my mom and me, but my mom lied to me about the purpose of the meetings and then manipulated me into feeling guilty enough to lie on her behalf. I didn't really know what was going on at the time, but the next times CPS talked to us, they didn't listen to me at all, in part because my mom is a great liar and in part because of what I'd said before, probably. The only thing that makes me believe that any of it happened at all is my ex-boyfriend and his parents, who are the only non-family-members to have been yelled at by my mom; his dad called her "very, very scary." If not for that I'd just believe it never happened at all. Ugh, I wish I could just trust the logical part of me that says it was real, that she was actually behaving badly. A lot of myself blames me for everything, believes I made it all up, like my mom said I did...and that part is a massive roadblock to my getting better.