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yea it sure can be scarey at times - I've landed in the creek that runs along my citys bike path a few times because of this.

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That would be terrifying, I'm glad you are ok.

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But I also know that not allowing myself to have times when I can let my guard down and float would be unrealistic after doing so almost 24 hours a day for over 40 years. So I do let my guard down at night as a sleep aid tool, that way I am training my brain to use my dissociation skills as a relaxation tool instead of as an escape during the day from my problems and emotions. Course that means that I have a field day drawing, writing, eating, cleaning, rearranging cupboards and furniture and so on while in various memory states that have been put on hold so to speak every time I got triggered during the day. Just love waking up to the laundry and dishes done and lets not forget the free pedicure (peanut butter and jelly sandwhich I stepped on one morning waking up). but its a small price to pay for full awareness during the day. and I can say thanks to the would be hair dresser. I haven't had a midnight hair DONT in a while.

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It sounds like you have made a positive out of "floating" or "drifting"...good for you. I spoke for a long time to my friend earlier, and he told me he was beginning to "drift." I asked him if it was pleasant and he said it was sometimes, but it is like he's losing awareness...so that sounds similar to some of what you described. I don't want to barrage him with questions all at once, so I will ask some a little at a time.

The peanut butter and jelly pedicure made me laugh!