Forgotten,
Thanks, you are so kind. I will say it is nothing that was said here. I think it's like you said. I am a very social person but spending so much time alone it's gonna hit me. I am fine by myself but I need more contact with people in a more steady stream to keep me going up. I can't spend weeks without doing anything nice or spending time with friends and then be in a good mood when I get the chance. It's not that easy.

I am glad for the people in here and that I can depend on them to be here for me. It's also nice to know I can be here for others. As for the trust....I'm trying but dang it's scary.

I was thinking of my friend today that I was having problems last week. I wanted to call her. I didn't and I don't know that I can. I can't do what she thinks I should and I can't be who she wants me to be (happy). Not right now anyway. If that is what's bothering her then what I am supposed to do? What am I supposed to say around her. I ain't gonna fake it. That's not me. Ugh life!!!

Hope you have a good day :O)
Hugs,
Heidu

When one door closes another door opens; but we so often look so long and so regretfully upon the closed door, that we do not see the ones which open for us.- Alexander Graham Bell