Crystalrose,

Transitions to a new t are always hard! It sounds like your old t may not be doing enough to help you make a change to a new t.

I don't know how helpful it was to tell you she wished she had referred you to someone else at the beginning. That's her own hindsight. It doesn't do anything to build you up now. In fact, I wonder if that statement has made you feel kind of rejected/abandoned?

If she is going to refer you, she needs to provide the support you need to make the transition. If she has not done so already, she should tell you why she feels she needs to refer you. And she absolutely needs to help you process the termination -- not just cut things off without any closure. It sounds like her decision to refer you has caused alot of painful feelings for you. You should have an opportunity to discuss all of that with her too.

Please tell her that you need support from her to make the transition to a new t. Also, let her know you feel hurt about the termination and need to talk about your feelings.

It seems like your t should know you need these things, but sometimes you have to spell it out.