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iam home now ....my parent asked me to come home so here iam home....
what home means to you? well my home doesnt feel like what home means to me ...
my mood change so easily from happy without no reason to extremely sad my famiouly knew nothing about this...
i was in hospital for 9 days and my mum was there too and she did talked to my neurologist and my neurologist said he also want me to seeing psychiatrist again my mum said i already had one before the problem is my mum didnt know what is wrong with me coz i never tell her all she know that i have personality disorder that she not really understand about that...my mum keep making me very stressful and i told her can she just let me a rest coz iam very depressed this is the first time i told her that iam depressed and she said something very hurtful "omg u depressed?how comes u depressed is like u dont have faith?dont u have faith? dont u believe in god?and i began to cry and went to my room ..i still dont understand how could my mum said something like that if i dont have faith i already kill my self so long ago and i will never pray anymore ..why if iam telling her mum iam having a fever she didnt said all the things she saids...
is there anyone out there need a life? i would give mine for free...
iam stressed out with my family problem,my friendship is falling apart, my study stuck and too much pressure feel like i cant survive ...
i just want to tell my mum that i love you ma , even it so hard sometimes to love you but i still loves you and iam sorry iam not perfect if i could fix everything i would do it for you but iam just ordinary girl and iam not that strong.....
i want you to know iam trying harder than anyone just for you to make you proud ..and iam sorry iam still nothing............
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As long as people aren't asking me if i'm all right, i am alright.
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