((((puffyprue))))

Awww----I am so sorry you are feeling so low. But you are something and I care. I know that feeling of trying so hard to make someone proud that cannot be made proud. Being who you are and being true to you is good enough. I know the feelings you had when she told you about having faith and don't you believe in God. That is a horrible thing to throw at you or anyone who is depressed. I was told that same thing many times and even today whenever I talk to anyone in my family it is always don't you believe God will take it away.

I get so angry when those words are thrown at people and it is just not right. God does care and he is there to help but you have a right to what you are feeling and there are reasons for feeling the way you do. I am glad you are here and that you have faith to not kill you. You are worth so much just because you are you. I am so glad you reached out here and you have given us the opportunity to support and encourage you. I know it was difficult but I am so glad you did.

Puffy, no one is perfect no matter how hard we try. And we all at some point will feel depressed sometime in our life. But that does not mean we do not have faith or that anything is wrong with us. I do hear you about if you had a fever she would not have asked you those things or said those hurtful things. Many times when I have been sick no one has said things and they have been there to help me. But no one in my family has been here for me in my mental illness and they continue to ridicule me. It is not our fault and we have done nothing wrong.

You are a good person and someone worth listening to as you walk this road. And I hope you know that we are here for you and we support you and how you feel. Please keep reaching out here and telling us how you are doing. Know that we care and we understand. You are you and that is good enough. Sending gentle hugs and loving thoughts.

dps