I have been praying to God to save me from my sins as the wages of sin is death. That's why our lives end in death on this sin cursed earth because we are all sinners. But I want to be on the New Earth and so my desire now to have a relationship with a man is gone; however, I am left with this internet gay porn addiction. God has already saved me from binge drinking. I have not had a drop since New Year's Day 2009. God had made a complete change in me in reference to my addiction to alcohol. Now I will wait patienly for HIM in reference to my addiction to gay porn. God has taken out of me the desire to be with a man sexually alive and in person so I will wait, pray to God and beg HIM for Mercy and Plead to take away my sinful lust for porn and the need to masturbate constantly.