It had been difficult for me to admit that my depression could have made me miserable at work, and also kept me from seeking out a better job in an area that interests me. It has been easier for me to just not look at it. I grew up with my mother hopping from one job to another. She has always been good at her jobs, but nothing has ever made her happy. I also grew up with my father making fun of her and me for our diverse interests (they're divorced). A few years ago my dad said to me, "face it, you've never made a good decision in your life." I can't get this statement out of my head and, yeah, it is going to keep me in therapy for awhile. He's wrong. I have made some very good decisions. I think just haven't been able to pull myself into satisfying work because of my low self esteem. Has anyone else ever thought about other work - but felt trapped by depression?