A really good time in a non destructive way? Or a good time as in when it is over you feel relaxed and better abuot yourself? When I have my outburst I always feel better and calmer. But then the guilt sets in and I get depressed. And I stay depressed for days or weeks and then it starts over again where something will happen, as in a small arguement with my wife and then I'll explode and rant and rave, either at her, friends, co-workers. Telling them exactly how they are inferior to me. Then I am calm and I feel relaxed, but embarrassed and depressed. The cycle goes on... sometimes I can go months without exploding or being depressed and then it happens again. I read in one of the topics that the weather may have something to do with it. I'm starting to think it does. I know in Feb. I ALWAYS cycle. And I'm starting to think that changing seasons has a lot to do with it. Even here in Texas where we really don't have a lot of changing weather, as compared to the east coast. My wish for you is a clamer state more often...