I have a female therapist (for about a year) - who started out as a couples therapist and then it evolved into her seeing me alone. She is married and there is no sexual interest whatsoever. We have a lot in common and she became increasingly available to me - text, email, calls - the relationship that we were in couples about ended - she was seeing me on the side and encouraging me to end the relationship. She was concerned about me on a long holiday weekend immediately post the breakup- not concerned for my well being but to keep me distracted so I would not go back to the ex. She invited me to spend the weekend at the house with her and her family. I went because I was lonely and like many say in therapy relationships - we have lots in common and get along - same sense of humor, blah blah blah. Anyhow I stayed at her house for 3 nights - met a family friend, we went to the gym - it was like staying with an old friend. On New Years Eve I went out with her and her husband for a drink - just like we were all buddies. She saw me after in therapy but more socially than not. She has expressed her disdain for my ex and implored me not to speak to him, block his vm, text, etc. He is not abusive - just maybe not the best choice for me. He has a lot of growing up to do. She diagnosed him to me - decided he was Borderline although he knew nothing of that diagnosis. I have found myself having to lie to her about my recent contact with him because she said if we got back together our therapy would be useless and go nowhere. I know we cant really be friends and I'm certain that trying to forge this friendship with me is serving her needs somehow. We've gone shopping together - went to a day spa. We even changed at the gym locker room together - so I've seen my therapist/friend naked. ugh She has an eating disordered history and I do too so I know that she has a special interest in me there. However, she makes jokes about eating and her body image issues - mostly putting herself down. I know that she thinks I am quite physically attractive and she likes to get makeup and fashion tips - we have a lot of similar interests - I have no family contact and she is quite nurturing - inside and outside of the office. It started months back when she initiated a "walking therapy" and we met to go for a long walk and talk. I had an inkling then that it was strange. Is there something I've done to open myself up to this sort of personal relationship? And I don't know what to say to her - about continued therapy. It's lose lose for me. I'm losing this pseudo-friendship and I can't imagine continuing therapy with her. I didnt off any explanation but I told her that I was considering a therapy break and she offered to hold my spot for a while until I decided. She texts me like a friend would and I'm not sure what to do or what to say to her. help