Thanks for the replies as always.
I wish to have clarity and direction once again, most importantly a sense of hope.
Its difficult though when you have to find a job and your mind is so foggy.
Been real stressed in finding a good job, but seems my efforts are a waste because my mind is so confused and its hard to focus on anything.
But as much as I want a job, in this state I am so unsure of myself and my abilities that I'm anxious that even if I get a job, I wouldn't be able to do it well..
I'm so frustrated and angry at myself, seems that whatever situation comes, I will be unable to handle it.