Thanks Pet. I know I'm not crazy, but he thinks I am. Since I have to physically see him once a week, it keeps the tension at a high. He can go from being like this one day, to acting like everything is perfectly fine the next. I never know which version I'm going to get. In person he can be "nice." In e-mail is when he gets mouthy.

I get ill feeling when I see an email from him, a call on caller ID, answering machine message. The sound of his voice and the tone of his writing makes my skin crawl.

He's a bully and he knows it, even if he won't admit to it. He continually tries to knock me down, so crawling back up to a healthy space seems nearly impossible. In return, I fight back verbally and reinforce his belief that I'm unstable. I just feel like I can't win.