I have had the WEIRDEST two weeks of my life. I have just been on this crazy perpetual moodswing. I have gone from so depressed I can't get out of bed to so wired I can't sleep. I have jumped from loving the world to wanting nothing to do with any of it. I feel like I'm going crazy. I mean I will be so depressed that I am in physical pain... like, my back and gut will just clench up and I just kind of curl up in fetal position until it passes. I haven't been this bad in months. I thought that my meds were working. For a little bit I even thought that I was getting back to being me. But now this. I'm meeting with my counselor tomorrow afternoon, but I don't know how to bring this stuff up to him without sounding like I'm in need of some kind of drastic psychological intervention. I'm not sure if that makes sense. I just can't stand feeling like this, but even more I can't stand people looking at me like there is something wrong. I am a college student and I can't afford to miss classes or whatever. And I don't want to find out that there is something wrong with me beyond my standard clinical depression and have my friends and family walking on eggshells every time I'm around. I just started smoking again after almost a year of being off :/ I feel like a loser for caving, but I just don't know how else to cope with this level of stress. Ugh! Does anyone here have similar experiences? Or am I really just losing what's left of my mind? lol. (sorry to kind of make light of the situation. Sarcasm is sometimes the only way that I know of to really cope with my life.)