Well I don't know really what to say. This is the first time I have opened up to anyone about this. No one knows that I've been SI for a while now. I hide it very well. I do it on my ankles most of the time and I hide them by wearing socks. I've been going through severe depression and panic dissorder for over 5 yrs now. And no I'm not seeing a therapist for it because I can't afford it and I'm trying to go through the local MHMR but its gonna be 2 yrs before I can get in. And I'm in the middle of getting disability. And I have no one to talk to about it. If my husband were to find with all the things that are going on with us he would try to use that against me. But anyways when I SI it usually happens when I'm having a panic attacks or when I'm just really upset. Which is pretty much all the time. But I'm afraid I'm not going to be able to hide it much longer.