Sex, Drugs, Cigarettes, Gambling, Insomnia, Shopping, working to many hours, spring cleaning, packing things and unpacking things, Go go go, obsessing about all of these.
Crashing, depression, distancing from everyone, hiding away somewhere, thoughts of suicide, hopelessness, tired, claustrophobia, irritable, anxiety, feeling like a failure, feeling like a freak.
These are extremes of two moods that my BP husband feels. Is it any wonder why when he feels down he looks for ways to get the extreme euphoria he normally feels when he's up? Not that there are any great rewards to this method.
Maybe this also explains how a marriage can be hard to maintain. This could also explain how an artist, poet, writer, magician, actor, scientist, composer ect can be such an amazing achiever. We look at these Great Greats in the world with love awe and admiration yet we reject them in marriage, and friendship due to the volatility of their mood swings. Can we stop thinking it’s all about us and realize their minds work differently? It’s hard to not take it personally. It’s difficult to watch them self destruct. They need love and support maybe more than most of us do. They live for those moments of praise love and worship. A book that helped me is the Four Agreements. I’ve mentioned this before and I’ll say it again. It’s an amazing Book!