((((lost_inthecrowd))))

Welcome to PC and thank you for posting. I hope you will find the support and friendship here that you are looking for. There are so many wonderful and caring people here who can encourage you along the way. Many have been where you are or in a similar place at some point. But I am glad you have decided to become a part of PC. Do you see a t or a counselor? Just wondering.

I am sorry that happened to you in high school. That must have been really hard to deal with. Especially not really knowing him but making a connection. And as far as your job, I am sorry you lost that too. I hope that you will find another soon.

It is hard to go to work when you feel dead on the inside. To paint on a face each day that says I am okay, and to perform when you do not feel like performing at all. Sometimes in life that is how we have to do it at least until we are ready to look inside and see where those feelings are coming from.

I know for me, sometimes it is all I can do to look at the world. And putting on that face is so hard and I just really want to shut off and shut down. But doing what we need to do to make it is how we get from one day to the next. It is hard when we are not sure what is going on within. But maybe you have taken the first step here to being able to look at what is going on.

Reaching out is a first step. As you feel more comfortable you will be able to open up a little more. Please take your time and look around. I hope you will keep posting and reaching out. There is lots of groups and things going on and you will soon fit right in and feel at home. Thank you again for posting. Looking forward to hearing more from you. Sending gentle hugs and loving thoughts.

dps