SOrry if this has typo's I am typing without using some of my fingers.
I cut myself. I can't believe I actually cut myself. I hate myself even more than before yet I feel like I want to cut myself more. I do feel a bit better though. Sigh. I can't get anything right can I? My fingers are so raw from me cutting away at them with my scissors...

I hate myself.
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"I'm going to smile...and make you think I'm happy...I'm going to laugh...so you don't see me cry...and even if it kills...I'm going to smile."