bp, your feelings are totally understandable...we've been through several "reorganizations" here, and everyone who stays seems to have "survivor's guilt". It really stinks when things like that happen, and the uncertainty can weigh heavily on you, but I am glad that you at least have some time to look for something else.

I wish you the best of luck...and you know you have friends here to listen whenever you need to vent.

*hugs*
mj