thanks Sabrina and Julia...
Julia....I can relate to what you said about expecting it to happen ...my son said It wouldn't be so bad for me because he had warned me for so long.....??????
I was almost as down as him in the finish listening to him talk about it but not being able to help him...
I'm finding it hard to cry now because I hyperventilate and have a panic attack...I'm too scared to cry too much....
Hugs to you..