Don't worry about people judging your reasons for depression. No one can judge them. There is no such thing as a "stupid reason to be depressed." Just because someone else doesn't understand why it's a big deal does not make it any less of a big deal for you. I am sorry that you feel this way... I don't have the answer for how to stop feeling that way because I am depressed, too. But I can tell you that the people here will listen to you.