Tree - keep on being honest with T about what you are experiencing. It makes sense that you feel the way you do after all you have been through. Keep on expressing and reaching out. T may have others they help out, but I honestly do believe each one matters in the heart of the T. The heart is big enough to love many all at the same time. Your T sounds like he has a huge heart that is just filled with tons of love. I don't think he is going to run short on love any time soon. So when you get your hour with your T, I think you will see his heart is in truth filled with honest compassion for who you are.