You should see a pdoc to get a ligitament diagnosis..I can see how thinking something is worst case senario can affect your way of living.. Your dad is bipolar so it is possible that you can be also..Meds can control it.. You don't need to be on meds like your dad.. There are so many out there now, that you cand work with your pdoc and find what works for you..It took them six years before they found the right combination that works for me..