Thank you everyone, Today is little easier , I have been looking at alot of pics and i even watched a home video of him from Christmas when i was a kid. He passed away from cancer, So even though i got sad and hes been gone a long time, Seeing him when he was healthy did make me happy. Seeing him smile and laugh , he loved laughing, brought me back to a great time in my life and how vibrant he was. He liked to tell jokes lol. Great sense of humor, So seeing all that while it was hard at times, Was also very soothing to me. Does that make sense? I miss him terribly, and esp now when i miss my friend(OH MAN , MY DAD WOULD HAVE LOVED MY FRIEND, THERE KINDA SIMILIAR, WITH HOW BIG THEIR HEARTS ARE) but Im trying to honor my dad the best way i can, I said a prayer to my dad and told him to please watch over my friend and keep him safe while hes away from me. YOU GUYS WOULD HAVE LOVED MY DAD, He was the type who would be on here giving hugs to everyone and giving advice. He would prob be on more than i am , and im on onlot lol. Thank you guys,i really love you all!