I didn't see the signs. It wasn't till after major depression that I started doing research and it was obvious that I at the very least had several hypomanic episodes since my early 20's. It helped me to rise to the top of my profession quickly. I think the addition of meds after my "great depression" has helped me from going overboard, one way or the other. I've been on meds about 6 years now.

I've I could be off meds, in a controlled mild hypomanic state, but still sleep when I wanted to, and never get depressed, it would be awesome. Oh wait, everyone wants that.

I've been having weird dreams (all sex related) and waking up really early, kinda anxious. I actually meditated this morning after I woke up in a panic at 5am, and I got back to sleep. I was kind of amazed that I was able to do that. I think it's the re-introduction of depakote that's making me a little loopy.