I can't handle feeling this way anymore and not having my family know that I've got a problem.

So, I've taken the advice of my T and other people here on PC and taken all the posts I've written and e-mailed them to my sisters.

Once they read it they will know that I've been living a lie for the last couple of years and that I've been completely sad for a long time. I won't be able to hide behind saying I'm ok and that everything is fine.

I'm really really scared about what my family is going to say. I'm kinda freaking out. I kinda wish I could take the e-mail back, but I just know I can't take it anymore. I hate my life the way it is right now.

Totally freaking out!