((((siempre nada))))

Thank you for posting and for sharing what you are feeling. I wonder if like many of us who have been stomped on or had things done or said either from our past or present relationships, if it is what we know so we tend to reach for that. But I also think that maybe anyway for me, all my life I have wanted to be accepted and loved beginning in my home and I never got that so when someone says something mean or does something that hurts me I think if I can make it right somehow they will love me or care.

I do not know if that is what you are asking but always trying to somehow be accepted and loved. When we are treated like crap it tends to be what we expect or accept as something we deserve. When the truth is we do not deserve to be treated this way. But so many times we just accept things even when they hurt us because bad attention or caring is better than none at all. How can we expect anything more than what we have always known, until we recognize what is happening and why.

I know for me I am working on this and it is not easy because even when I got bad love or mean love, at least I got something. So maybe that is why we tend to think that is what we deserve and we tend to accept it even when it hurts.

I hope you will begin to realize that you do not deserve to be treated that way, and that you will find acceptance for you and friendship because it is what should be. I know what you are saying and I am hearing you. Know that we care and are here for you. Please keep posting and sharing. Sending gentle hugs and loving thoughts.

dps