Tonight we are sitting here and feeling so afraid. Like the wind blowing non-relentingly outside so is the fear and loss within our hearts. The howling and whistle sounds that are being heard are echoing throughout our selves and it is reminding us of those times it was where we could not get out and the cold we felt that just grabbed our insides and would not let go.

Many within are shivering and I find myself unable to get warm. Fear entangling every part of us and pulling us away from feeling connected at all. Wanting to hide and feeling like there is no place safe right now. Not even in our home. Tears trying to fall yet almost freezing in time where tears were not even possible and time just stood still.

Trying to ground and feeling so overwhelmed by thoughts that are reaching through this cold and wrapping themselves around us. Littles one huddling together as best they can and feeling every motion like it is all we can do to move. When will this stop? When will we feel safe? When will the fear let go?

Time seems to almost stand still and we want it to pass into day. Nights are the worst and it feels as though this night will never end. The rain hitting the window and falling down the glass pane feels like the glass house we have built around our heart and the tears that seem to get trapped inside where no one can hear them.

We are scared and trying to find safety. Maybe writng this will at least give way to our thoughts. And someone will know we are here. Can anyone hear us?

dps and insides