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I keep thinking that people are saying mean things about me behind my back around here. I know in my head that's probably not true but the thought is still there. It's not even a matter of anxiety because it's not something that I fear- just a sort of sinking feeling. I don't have a lot of trust anymore.
you know depersonalization and derealization happens to me a lot... I dissociate a lot... not in the losing time/DID sort of way but of being pulled away as though a barrier exists between myself and the situation... a thin one yes, but it is still there. But it's never when I feel like I need it- it's kind of random to me really... there have been so many times these past couple of years where I have felt intense feelings of fear, sadness, and anger, and it's during those times I wish I was away how firmly cemented in I was.
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