My mom passed away a little over a year ago. It's just so hard to deal with. She was really the only person I could talk to about my problems. She was a diabetis and had been for most of her life. When I was pregnant with my son she had her first stroke. And then after that she had several for the past 7 years. We lost her 4 days before Christmas of 08. On Dec 14th her blood sugar went low and my step dad gave her some orange juice to bring her out of it like he usually does and she aspirated some of it. Then it turned to pnemonia. He blamed himself for her getting sick but we all told him it wasn't his fault that those things just happen sometimes and he couldn't have known any better. On her first night at the ER her left lung colapsed so they had to put in a chest tube. So she was in ICU because she had to be on a ventilator. A few days later she had a massive heart attack and they said that everything was shutting down so it was time to make some decisions. Then she kind of started to inprove the next couple of days. And then when everyone had gone home to try to get some rest we got the call that she had passed away. She had another massive heart attack. I had her ashes but my husband talked me into sprinkling them over her mom's and dad's graves and my real dad's and my great grandmother's graves too. He figured it might help me with my panic attacks and stuff but it didn't. I am just so lost without her! Not a day goes by that I don't think about her. She was my best friend and we talked about everything. I've never been so close to someone like I was with her. I know she is happy where she is at though cause she has no more pain.