I really feel for you. I had to leave my support behind when I moved to the US last summer; I recently got copies of my medical notes and got really upset when I saw her discharge letter to my GP. Of course I knew I was discharged as I was no longer in the country, but it still hurt.

But I have found someone new who I like and trust, and feel I am making progress again. I still find it hard, though, to have had to say goodbye to that support when I still needed it. Maybe it's to do with control, that it wasn't my choice or the right time to stop.

I hope you too will be able to find someone new you can trust - but I do understand how sad you must be feeling.