I realize that clozaril is a unique medication. It requires biweekly blood work be done and the results of your WBC be called into the pharmacy before you can even fill your Rx. It also carries the label of "last resort" as far as anti-psychotics go.

Maybe I am just feeling down.....I haven't been sleeping well with the lower doses of the clozaril. And heck.....now I won't sleep at all until.........God knows when.......

I am just sick........sick of this "illness", sick of going to Drs to try to "explain" what I am feeling........
I hate feeling........hell, I hate not feeling............

I hate the stigma this illness carries!!!

I hate saying "I" so much, why bother..................

I am sorry for ranting.....take care everyone