thanks so much to all of you here who have responded to this. i'm still not doing so well. i'm jumping at shadows and i haven't been able to sleep. i AM back in my apartment. i have my roommate here so that helps. i am terrified to be out after dark now which sucks since i have a night class.

i do have a T and my appt is wednesday...she's gone til then so i'll have to wait. i could talk to the on call T at the school but i don't feel comfortable doing that. i'll just muddle through. i'm about to break open the sleep pills though because i have to sleep.

the police have little to go on and probably won't be finding whoever did this. they were very kind though (the police) and helpful.

my main problem now is that i feel so guilty for all of this. i know that sounds dumb but i feel like it's my fault it happened. i feel so stupid. that is gonna be the hard part of this. i can see it tied into my past... i know the guilt isn't just from this...i just can't seem to make it go away. sigh.

thanks so much to all of you.

(((((((((((silver queen)))))))))))
((((((((((1day))))))))))))
(((((((((((petunia)))))))))))))))
(((((((((((((flutter))))))))))))))
(((((((((((((fuzzy))))))))))))))))
((((((((((((ozzie)))))))))))))))
(((((((((((((Caroline)))))))))))
(((((((((((((((cms))))))))))))))
((((((((((((((sky)))))))))))))))

please continue to send good thoughts my way. i have a feeling that it's only just begun.

-shadow