I remember, i had a T long years ago, who told me she loved me - i was SO MAD at her. i hated her for it. to love me when only ppl who loved me hurt me. to say something to me i could never say back. She had know idea the knife that stuck in me (or the SI that came from that). Like Sunrise said, that is such a complicated idea.
Tree, maybe you are simply growing and pushing the envelope on your own self?
hugs!