ok, well i have lost alot of myfriends to cutting. and so it might happen. i see ur reaching out for help from sombody. if u cut in a place where it was bound to show. i understand that u want to cut. i just hope u chose not to. u hit a wrong nerve and bam. si is called i think parasuicide. its what ur doing to keep urself from dying. u have to think of this tho. is it fair to hide this much hurt from people u care about? u seem depressed do something else that isnt cutting. take an ice cube and rub it over where u want to cut. it pinches and feels like u are but ur not hurting urself in anyway. ur pretty new at this so are u even sure this is what u want. to be in pain the rest of how ever long it takes u to stop. trust me. once u start right away ur going to want to stop