((((AShadow721))))

Thank you for sharing. I am so sorry you are going through all this. I know how it can be so hard. I am glad you were able to get this much down and out of your mind and stop holding it alone. You did not deserve this and I do not blame you for how you feel about your father.

Are you in therapy or have someone IRL that you can talk to and reach out to for help? Please take care of yourself and your son. Having those feelings must be hard and feeling like you have to hide from your father has to be rough. My heart goes out to you.

Have you tried to get help with food and stuff? Is there anyway you can move? Do you have someone, a friend maybe, that you could call to get away for a few hours during the day so you do not feel trapped?

Please know that we are listening and hearing you. We care. Please keep posting and letting us know how you are doing. Sending gentle hugs and loving thoughts.

dps