Lastnight when the winds were blowing unrelentlessly, fear and terror filled me. The cold from the wind howling through was not as cold as what I was feeling within. It was all I could do to find a way to somehow try to find safety. For not even within was there safety.

As the night went on, we lost power and everything including the lights outside were gone. Looking out my window darkness filled the streets except for the sirens and cars that drove by. The winds howled and the rain hit the screens and it sounded as if I were right outside in it all.

Trying so hard to find someway to feel safety, I found myself feeling like I was swaying and it entangled with the spinning in my head. Those within getting stronger with every minute that passed. And something within was trying to get out. Then it hit me and the flashbacks started, something I could not stop.

Fear filled me and every part of me within. Curling up tight I could find no relief. Hearing those within, the darkness began to come alive once again. For the longest time unable to move and calling out to someone who had no idea we were calling out to them. Time seemed to freeze for a couple of hours and shivers and scenes unraveled before my eyes.

As time went on, the power came back on and I found written the words that have never been spoken to anyone. Tears fell and silence once again has gripped me within. It hurts. This morning I find it hard to think. Feeling exhausted yet I cannot lay down. Sometimes I wonder will it ever end?

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