Supportive therapists are out there, ones that you WANT to go back to I hope you find one You and I have a lot in common and for me I needed to find a job/career that I loved and friends that are there for me that I love, these things have helped me enormously...family not so much....but friends, yes....and of course therapy, truly important..if you can, force yourself to go..therapy is a God send it is the source of my help..