((((treehouse)))))
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I know that a lot of the problem is that growing up, people who said they loved me would hurt me, badly, and I am JUST understanding for the first time...they DID NOT LOVE ME. It wasn't that they loved me so much that they got carried away. It was that they never loved me in the first place. I was just a means to an end. I was just the easiest person around to fool. I was the stupidest person they could find.
SO, how can I believe T when he says he loves me? I don't.
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I know you know what love feels like.
Love is in the actions, love feels good and safe and warm in our bodies.
Pause, and think for just a moment how you feel about your children and how you love them and they love you. Or the love of an animal, or your higher power. Try to notice how this feels in your body. Just 'bathe' in the feeling of love.
One thing that helped me, was to recognize that 'evil' (for lack of a better word) leaves me with the feeling of confusion. When I start to feel all conflicted and confused, I know it is time to stop and think. Love will never cause confusion. Love does not try to trick you. Love does not guilt you.
Trust yourself, tree. You are a wise and wonderful woman, and deep down you know.
