Jexa, if it is as big of a part of your healing as it sounds like it is, then being honest with T about all the "stuff" that is there is the best way to go. What you gain from it will be that it will clear the air and you will know your T has heard your point of view.

We also understand the hate of being "dependent" on a T !!! UGGGSTERS!
Those of us who have a strong self determination have fought our entire lives to survive and make it when we had not a single soul on our side. Now here you are with a person who is literally being handed all your "bags" - your shields of defense and your weapons and all your survival supplies - and you are trusting on THEM to help you make it through the toughest battle of your life - the battle to reclaim your mental wellness. OMG! That is a very frightening thing for a survivor to do!

There are so many things that could just go wrong .... we know it internally!
What if the T uses a weapon against us? We know that is most likely not the case, but after all - we have trusted before and were proven wrong. The T knows our soft spots and has access to them. UGGG!

And what if T does not let us use a tool we think we need to protect ourselves? What are we supposed to do? And if T is not there with us and a situation comes up and T has all of our supplies and has not given us directions yet on what to do in those situations - then what happens!

It really is all a very vulnerable place to be in right now for you.

So I say keep working from the point of survival and be honest with the one you have picked to help you out along this path.