Well I just did it again. I know when I do it that it's wrong so why do I do it. It just feels so good to hurt on the outside instead of on the inside. I've been going through this panic attack I've been having all morning. I've tried distracting myself and relaxation techniques. Its getting to where I do it at least once a day. And I'm still putting them where no one can see and where I'm able to cover them up. And ya'll are the only ones I can talk to about this.