wow. after reading your post and reading the replies I'm thinking these people know their stuff. A lot of good advice there and I think you have so much life ahead of you that you need to focus on what you want & need for your future and keep moving on. I have wasted 10 yrs of my life waiting for someone to grow up and its time for me to do the same. I would like to say" I'm proud of YOU " for what you are doing (after all you have been through) just hang in there and don't settle for less that what you deserve. I wish you the best and hope that we will read some good news comming from you very soon . take care of yourself and stay safe.