I'm with The Byz on this:
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Originally Posted by TheByzantine
You are being pretty harsh on yourself, Typo.
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Originally Posted by Typo
All my life everything in it's neat little compartmatized boxes, this goes here, but not there, can't put that there people will hate me, abandon me, yell at me, etc etc...  |
I guess it's possible (just barely) that you've always managed to keep secrets so flawlessly that you've never experienced what happens when you spill one. If that's not so, however --
have people always hated you, abandoned you and/or yelled at you when you've revealed a secret, or could you be scaring yourself with nightmarish worst-case scenarios?
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On the bright side 
-- as long as they're still yelling at you, that shows they haven't abandoned you. Once they do abandon, you it doesn't matter how much they yell because you won't be able to hear them, nor how much they hate you because they won't be able to tell you about it. 
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And now I"ve gone and done it, I've let the fear take control of me, manipulate me, I've let it make me a coward, and now because of all this, I may just loose everything
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That's about how I'd word it if I were out to give myself a hard time, or if I needed a nice juicy disaster to take my mind off all the little stuff I was worried about.
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I am doing nothing wrong, there is nothing wrong about our relationship, I fear the judgement, the accusations, I fear people are going to hate me, fear they aren't goign to understand...
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By any chance are you already judging yourself so that the last thing you need is help from anyone else?
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And now I may just have decided to break my coward stance too late in the game, it may be too late.....
My best friend is going to hate me, we have been friends for over 15 years, she is my support, she is my sister, we have been through so much together, she knows everything, everything about my life almost, except this, and I've kept it from her for a year, she is going to hate me...
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Whatever your actual situation, you seem to be going way out of your way to color the prospects as dark as possible. The times I've watched myself doing that, I've been afraid of whatever was coming and trying to adjust my expectations so that if possible, it would be a
pleasant surprise.
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Eat a bullfrog first thing in the morning, and nothing worse will happen to you for the rest of the day.
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what a ****** person I am....
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No, on second thought:
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Once you've had a chance to settle down a little...
PC: You have included 16 images in your message. You are limited to using 12 images so please go back and correct the problem and then continue again.
OK then, I owe you four hugs and PC, one rolleyes [insert big grin here].