(((((((Aimeesh)))))))

Why exactly would you not want to be hospitalized? Have you ever been in a psychiatric hospital? Are you afraid that they would keep you longer than you want to be there?

I have had suicidal thoughts and being in the hospital was the best place for me at that time. It's not much fun there, kind of like a cross between a zoo and a prison, but it is a safe place when you need one.

How long have you been on the Abilify? I am not terribly familiar with that drug but some drugs can actually induce suicidal thoughts. You should tell your prescriber how you are doing. Perhaps a med change is needed.